Friday, November 11, 2016

My first post, yay!

Writing has always been a good way for me to get out the thoughts and feelings that I can't seem to form into words with my vocal cords. Fortunately for me, I live in the age of electronics and limited social interaction, so forming full sentences to express how I feel verbally isn't usually expected of me. Ask me to explain to you how I feel though text message and I can write you a novel. Call me, and I babble like an idiot and seem to lose all function of my brain. I'm not sure why it is that way, but it's always been that way. 

Just a little background on myself. I'm 24 years old and I live in the wonderful state of Michigan with my husband and my dog. We enjoy our time outside. Nothing is more beautiful to me than spending a day enjoying nature. We live our lives for Christ. My life has changed DRASTICALLY since I've accepted Jesus Christ. I'm not kidding in the least bit. I went from constantly being depressed and making all the wrong decisions, to finding happiness in the smallest of things and making decisions that will benefit me in the future, not just what will benefit me now. Life just gets a little easier with Him in it, don't you think? 

With that being said though, I've really been struggling this week with my mental well being. I'm going to go ahead and chalk it up to the fact that I have been through a lot in the past few weeks, and I'm sure anyone would be feeling this way at this point. But I can't help but beat myself up over it. Yay anxiety! 

All sarcasm set aside though, anxiety does play a huge role in my life. I've been doing better about trying to accept things the way that they are and not let my anxiety hinder my day to day life. Living with anxiety is HARD. Don't ever let anyone belittle you because of it. Don't listen to them, they don't understand. They may think that they have a good grasp on it because they may feel anxious from time to time and it passes quickly. But don't beat yourself up because yours won't pass as quickly as it does for others. I promise you, it will only make your anxiety worse and more difficult to deal with. 

Unfortunately, this post is going to be cut short. But I'll see you guys next time. 
Keep smiling, and keep your head up. 
You're stronger than you think, and more beautiful than you can see.